Age(ing) of An Aquarius

It strikes me that to live long enough to be an old woman would be fabulous-- aging isn't fun, but it beats the alternative. Besides, the eccentricities (and headgear) one can get away with escalate with every passing decade. Here are some images from the blog ADVANCED STYLE, a site I find far more inspiring than Alexa Chung.





My Favorite Patriotic Pastime

Excerpt: The Girl on the Horse
Anyway, I said savagely to myself as I tried to lift a large and very clumsy suitcase down from the baggage rack, anyway, it ismy father's old home, and I've always liked antiques, and I supposed an ancestral house is always more interesting than — "Oh, drat it! Ouch!"
If you'll allow me, miss," said the conductor reproachfully.
"Thank you… very kind of you… don't know why I can't seem to manage anything today. Are — are we getting near New Jerusalem yet?"
"Only about twenty minutes more now, miss."
Only about twenty minutes more.
Twenty minutes
Feeling suddenly weak in the knees, I sank back on the hard train seat and glanced again at the gloomy landscape lumbering past the window. I had always heard that upper New York State was beautiful, but it certainly was not on a gray late afternoon in May, with the clouds blowing in rainy gusts off the low hills, and the barns and trees and little white farmhouses all huddled together as if trying to shelter themselves from the wet. The train window was so dank with mist anyway that it was hard to see anything at all except the reflection of my own dark figure hunched down under the baggage rack in my black tweed coat and hat.
The tweed coat had been green when my father bought it for me in London that spring, but the nice old landlady at the little Scottish inn where we were staying when he was taken ill had firmly sent it out to be dyed the day before the funeral.
"No doubt but that Ian MacDonald will make a poor hand of dyeing," she had remarked, patting my shoulder in a motherly way; "but it will be ready the morn, and better for you than having no blacks for your father at all.
Ian MacDonald had indeed made but a poor hand of the dyeing. The coat had come home shrunken, curiously streaked and rusty looking, with two buttons broken. But it was black, undeniably black — and kind old Mrs. Campbell had looked so pleased over her thoughtfulness for me that I simply did not have the heart to tell her that nothing would have shocked my father more than the idea that I was wearing mourning for him at all.
The truth was that my father did not really like me very much. You could not blame him. An artist and a traveler, he should probably never have married at all — certainly he should never have been left with a squalling newborn baby on his hands when my mother died. As long as he could afford it, he had merely dumped me on a succession of nursemaids, schools, and camps while he wandered. When he could no longer afford it, he had taken me along with him on the strict understanding that I was to keep quiet and stay out from under his feet as much as possible. In all the seventeen years the only time he had ever spoken to me with any tenderness — if you could call it that — was the afternoon of the day before he died.
"I've been a bad father to you, Peggy," he had said suddenly, turning his head on the pillow to look at me. "I've — what's that expression Mrs. Campbell always uses? I've made but a poor hand of you."
"You haven't — you're not," I choked. "I never minded. I — "
"Don't talk nonsense!" said my father briskly. "If I hadn't been a selfish fool, there'd be enough money left to send you to college and get you fairly started in the world. As it is, I can't do anything except ship you back to Enos at Rest-and-be-thankful. I wrote to him yesterday after I saw the doctor. He'll be expecting you."
There was a blank pause while I tried to grasp what he was talking about. I was used to my father's casual way of announcing his plans ("You'd better pack your bags, Peggy; we're leaving for Italy in the morning"), but this was really a little too much.
"Enos — he's your older brother, isn't he?" I ventured at last. "I don't seem to remember anything about a place called Rest-and-be-thankful."
"Why should you?" my father snapped. "I never remember it myself when I can help it."
Then he grinned unexpectedly.
"You'd probably better not let Enos know I said that," he added. "He probably thinks I spent half my time holding you on my knee telling you fairy tales about the ancestral estate. That's the kind of man he is."
"Is Rest-and-be-thankful the ancestral estate?"
"In every sense of the word." My father made a face at the thought of it. "The first Enos Grahame — he was one of those impossible Highland chieftains who rebelled with Bonnie Prince Charlie and had to flee from Scotland in the customary fishing boat afterwards — the first Enos Grahame came to Orange County in New York and build the place in 1749, I think it was. He named it after that resting place on the hill at Edinburgh. The Grahames have been there ever since, accumulating family traditions. You probably know what sort of thing I mean."
"A bed George Washington slept in?"
"Two beds — he stayed with us twice. Also Lafayette, Alexander Hamilton, Benedict Arnold — no, I’m wrong, Benedict Arnold only came to dinner, but we still have the wineglass he drank from. There's even a rock in the garden Fenimore Cooper is supposed to have stubbed his toe on during a garden party in 1842. I used to think I'd go crazy sometimes listening to your Uncle Enos moon about them all. The whole family were always a little beside themselves over Rest-and-be-thankful, but your Uncle Enos was the worst of the lot. Would you believe it? The last time I saw him, he said with a perfectly straight face that as long as he owned the place the first Enos Grahame could come back whenever he liked and find the whole house just as he remembered it! I told him I could think of better ways of spending my time than trying to make life comfortable for a pack of ghosts I couldn't even see. That did it!" My father chuckled unrepentantly. "Never saw Enos so mad in my life."
"Well, you have to admit it wasn't a very nice thing to say."
"That he was keeping a pack of ghosts? Oh, Enos wouldn't have minded that so much — matter of fact, he'd probably have taken it as a compliment, the fool! It's not being able to see them himself that gets under his skin. Well, if I were a ghost I don't know that I'd bother appearing to Enos either; but he seems to think that being the head of the family ought to have given him some sort of priority, and — the truth is, Peggy, if they do happen to get after you, it might be a good idea not to mention it. He'd never forgive you."
I could only stare at him helplessly.
"Well?" said my father. "What's the matter now?"
"But you're talking —" I gasped, "you're talking as if you thought Rest-and-be-thankful actually ishaunted."
"Well," said my father, "it actually is, you know."
"But —" I began again.
"Never mind arguing about it now," my father interrupted me. "Wait until you see Rest-and-be-thankful; then you'll understand. And take that look off your face! They're not supposed to rattle chains or flap about wailing in misty sheets. All they do is come around sometimes when they happen to feel like it. You probably won't be able to see them anyway — Enos never has, and neither could I, though Great-Aunt Emily used to say that she got to know some of them quite well when she was a girl. And of course Louise was always trying to make out that she could see them too, but she was such an awful liar that I never believed a word of it."
"Who was Louise?"
"My little sister. You can forget about her. She got married a good many years ago and is making life miserable for some chapter of the D.A. R. out in the Middle West. She and Enos had a fight over one of the family tea sets she wanted to take with her, and he hasn't spoken to her since that I know of."
I gulped. It was beginning to sound as if a live Uncle Enos would be even more difficult to get along with than a whole houseful of ghosts, even regular ghosts of the misty-sheet variety.
"Oh, he's all right if you don't just expect him to love you any better than a family tea set," was all the comfort my father could give me. "Of course, Enos was always a queer fish, and living alone so long with his everlasting antiques and family traditions has made him queerer than ever. But I don't think you have anything to worry about. I've brought you up not to be a nuisance; you ought to be able to look after yourself. You can't expect him to change his ways for you, of course. Just be quiet and don't bother him any more than you can help — Oh, that reminds me." He sat up suddenly against his pillows. "I told Enos in my letter that you were accustomed to looking after yourself and he needn't trouble about meeting you. Send him a telegram when you arrive at the airport and then take any train on the railroad that stops at a little place called New Jerusalem. That's where you get off."
New Jerusalem…
Only about twenty minutes more now.
From Chapter One of The Sherwood Ring by Elizabeth Marie Pope. Copyright c. 1958 and renewed 1986 by Elizabeth Marie Pope. Reproduced by permission of Houghton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.

That's "Life"

"Life," the super creatively titled autobiography by the inimitable Keith Richards, has been my read-du-jour as of late. Makes me miss England something terrible, of all things-- and reinforces my love of good rock & roll, which is a sizable passion on my list of favorites.







                                               


              

La Belle Chose


Paris is what I imagine it would feel like to awaken from the dead-- the life taken from your flaccid corpse only be electrified once again with blinding, searing, clarity. Epiphany, were it a swirl of senses and memory, pungent fragrance of a thousand of the fullest bouquets in myriad colours, the fire of the perfect whiskey. Then... the train pulls like toffee from the station and you consciously turn your mind away, only the whispered promise of "I will return" lingering in the space between...


Unless you cannot afford a ticket back, then you watch it in movie theaters and feel your heart fighting tooth and nail to get out. At least the popcorn is immediately [ful]filling.

The Last Leg(s)

In the home stretch-- over halfway done with my final paper of undergrad-- and naturally I need to share with you all a few pictures I ran across (metaphorically) recently that I had quite forgotten about. What is better than peanut butter & jelly? Try jelly and fish, preferably together, jellyfish. At the Monterey Bay Aquarium in the summer of 2008. Enjoy.










Dithering In The Rain

Santa Barbara Mission in the afternoon.   
View from Inspiration Point at sunset.


            



Oh my heavens. If it seems like I've been unavailable for the past several weeks (try three months, actually) that conception may stem from the fact that I am in any one place no longer than three days at a time. Such a conception would be accurate. Such is the life of, erm, myself.
Randsburg. Enough said.

I purchased this. I am in love.
Le Petit Dejeuner at Figaro.

         

I have tons of really excellent (in my humble opinion) photographs I have taken of my meanderings, but they are all in my cameras' memory cards and I have been lax in uploading them, so the ones above are from le phone. Which, apparently, will in fact cause cancer, so enjoy them, they may cost me dearly. Modern living, what can you do?

I am dithering. I graduate in seven days (a week?! when did that happen??) and then am off to a very busy summer, which may make law school in the fall seem like a vacation. Maybe. It is pouring rain outside my door and I doubt much could make me happier. See's candies, you say? Yes, actually, that would make me happier. If only there were a shop approximately 1.5 blocks from-- ah, that's right, there is. I'll be right back.

On The Subject of Matrimony

Cheers, As Long As You Both Shall Live!

I stayed up for the Royal Wedding-- I did not think I would... but I also did not think I would host an impromptu celebration for it, either. I did, both. How often does a Crown Prince get married? Considering how high Princes are on the endangered list, not often, not often at all.

Love, love, and love the Grace Kelly-esk dress! And who else but McQueen?

Norwegian Royal Wedding, 2001. LOVE her dress.
This wedding dithering has got me thinking (however slightly) of my own pending nuptials-- pending, of course, on a groom. I am not a girl who daydreams of my wedding day... I daydream of the day I have six historic estates scattered across the globe and I host dinners with my family, friends, and a handful of very-close-to-me Nobel Prize winners. I spend my time not looking at bridal magazines or designer wedding gowns online but rather googling the price of two-hundred-year-old beaded Sioux buffalo robes, and the cost of gas to drive from Tijuana to Anchorage. Not to say I do not want to get married-- I do ("I do", haha!). It seems, amongst many other things, that weddings are one of the few times that nearly every person you care about can be all in the same place at once. And that sounds nice.

In fact, there is one very specific aspect of my wedding that I have had in my mind for years, and that is a location. Who knows, perhaps I will get married in a bar in Tulsa, or in Griffith Park, or Thailand, or on a rooftop in San Francisco... I do not know, and neither do you (I think), but my "dream" location (a word I use lightly because I generally, and however "naively" to you, consider "dreams" to be "plans of a concrete though as yet unfulfilled nature") to be Ireland's Ashford Castle.


Pierce Brosnan was married here... which is almost irrelevant to me, but it is, in fact, un fact. Ideally, I would fly a select group of beloved ones to Ashford for a small wedding, and have a larger celebration with the bulk of people I know and love back in the states where the majority of them could actually make an appearance.

And I lie, I have given thought to one more thing-- the honeymoon. This is mostly whims, but there are some frontrunners:

Argentina- Malbec, Tierra Del Fuego, horses? Yes.

South African shark expedition. I am dead serious. Er... serious serious.

Mykonos, a tour of Greece, the Mediterranean? Can't deny olive oil, lamb, and naps.

Well, I daresay that is quite enough of that. You cannot very well plan a wedding alone, can you? If gay marriage is contestable, I cannot imagine the uproar if I married myself... you cannot have a marriage of one, that is nonsensical, and pointless, because I think that is called "being." Done, and done, and now, step one towards my ticket to Johannesburg: a groom... applications currently being accepted.



Get Me To The Church In... Style

To the casual onlooker it may appear that I spend my time, artfully and diligently, and after extensive periods of concentrated practice and field experience, doing absolutely nothing. I am not here to debunk those rumours-- what would happen to my reputation if my friends had nothing to ridicule me for while I quietly did things (lots of them, shh) behind their backs?


Jimmy Choo, $775



However, I will own to having an incredibly productive morning, for as the dishes lie in wait for my be-sponged hands, and toast goes un-toasted for lack of my desire to rise from the lounging glory of the couch, I have compiled the results of an even finer effort: I have put together a selection of possibilities for what I would wear to the fast-approaching Royal Wedding (you might have heard something about it), were I invited. All the below items are currently for sale online, and I have barred vintage (damn) from this buffet of garmentry. Most of this is available at Barney's, my clothing purveyor of choice, clearly (ha). Enjoy.


Anita Ko, $2,840

Alexander McQueen, $1,995



Louboutin, $725

Lanvin, $1,715

Barbara Tfank, $2,160
All hats above by couturecreations.net.


Brenda Lynn, $225

Erdem, $915

It may come as a shock that I was, in fact, not (yes, not) invited to the wedding, however, and have positively nowhere to wear these lovely things. It is for that reason, and that reason alone, that I decline to purchase any of them. None of it, none of it. I really cannot be bothered.

What I Do


Making macaroni & cheese for dinner (living the dream), I made this up. I bought some bananas today. It is awful.

So the banana farmer says to the grape farmer, “What's up?” The grape farmer replies, “A bunch of stuff. You?” The banana farmer says, “Eh, dealing with a lot of overhead right now.”


Bahaha. Ha. Ha.

The Long Road Home

Storms were rolling into the desert as I made my seemingly weekly pilgrimage back to the ol' homestead.
                  



                                                                      

                  

Interior Thoughts

So I have not yet moved to L.A.-- a rapidly approaching event I anticipate with remorse (I adore Santa Barbara) and unparalleled excitement (Santa Barbara will get put back on the "plausible and excellent day trips!" list). I am, however, already planning extensively for the interior decor of my pending abode. Note, I do not have any idea where I will be living, but I am aiming my sights at an upper one bedroom, near hills, with wood floors, preferably in a less than four unit complex, apartment with character and a sense of peace and openness. That is the dream-- I have seen some such places on craigslist (the bane of boredom), but whether or not there will be one waiting for me when I am ready remains to be seen. Cross your fingers, and I will let you visit.

Anway, here are some images that (at least in parts) get at what I want. Ideal word associations include: All Saints Spitalfield's, rock & roll, bohemian orient, baroque, mod, horns, bones, gnarled wood, black and white photography, Ansel Adams, Balmain, Isabel Marant, Versailles, rural Tenneesee, Luisa Casati, Mykonos, Provence, and three-masted ships. Bet you could have guessed that, of course.
 






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